Self-saboteur.

The logistics of all things debaucherous don't seem to be working out at all. We're all scheduled to catch Spiegeltent on the 11th; a day after my original last day of assignments (the 10th, which would've been perfect in theory). Now that my thesis has been pushed back, there is no feasible way I'll be done by the 11th in any form or manner, and on top of that, the uncle-who-owns-the-place has plans to arrive for a "short" holiday come early November. If negotiating having fun on the 11th was hard before (with the mountain of work looming over my shoulder), it's now doubly annoying with his presence since B obviously has to stay over seeing as it'll be way past midnight after Spiegeltent, and there isn't a car or anything and living in the 'burbs does that to you...

So not only do I have to worry about turning my 100-419 paper (hopefully the thesis'll have been done by then!) in in due time post-Spiegeltent and B-staying-over, there's also the awkwardness of the uncle being there and generally having to work around that. Ugh!

Scheduled to meet with the Sup on Thursday and there's still so much work to get through... this thesis is like a CANCER on my soul.

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Just once in my life
I think it'd be nice
Just to lose control, just once
With all the pretty flowers in the dust

"Lose control" - Evanescence